test test test n more test
totally jumble the tings up.
gosh wms to icms to sap.
smue software..

in couples of tyme.
havin wms prac test..
hope evrythg wont screw up..
if not..amiik ko nasib!

oh yea..mitin gfs 2dae!!
weee....aftr a super duper long tyme here we mit again

it strted wif a hi.den a bye
sooner it dvelop into a feeling.
ohno!

Labels: _meaniNG?_

ok ppl .
i jz got bck frm olidae(terengganu/kelantan trip)yesterdae.
overal it was fun..
shopping at there was totally CRAZY!
erm...im outtawerds..
here some pictures taken...

as fer 2dae
couples of unexpected tings happen
let me type out 1 by 1

in the bus
while sittin wif zima..she told me tt ade 2 bdak madrasah ngah pelok2
so me the usual me i turned n look
btl la sey.nga pelok2
lyke OMG!lau ye pn nk pelok2 g la bukak tudung ko...

at the platform
at yishun mrt station.
suddenly the emergency bell go off
a lady fainted in the train.luckily the train reached the platform oready

at the traffic light
got tiz 1 trailer ter overshot.
so the pedestrians hav to go behind the trailer in order to cross

at northpoint
saw alfams fren..
lyke eh asl kwn die aku jp!

at macdonald
saw my pri sch teacher
mdm yani!!
she still rmbr me la.
hw i miss my dear hockey teacher so much!!

under the void dect
while walking wif faliq .
den faliq sae:"tu mak andak(alfam mum)"
den i was so stunned..i cnt go anywhr.
she oready smile frm far
his mum:"rabia kn ni"
me:"ye saye"(deb slm her)
his mum:"da abis bljr"
me:"da.."
his mum:"tanak naek atas"
me:"tkpla cik
wen we were abt to go
his mum:"naek atas japla"
me:"tkpla cik laen kali"
his mum:"ok.jp lag ye..tknk kirim slm alfam"
me:"ermm.ok..kirimkn slm. =)"

seee...!!!!
unexpected kan satu2!

prev post ive said tt i wanted to move out of tiz situation
wen i was abt to move..sumthg hold me bck
y??dun u want to see me lead a happy lyfE??
y must u c me in suffering situation

at 1st i was joyed wif his msg.
ya whu nvr sih..aftr a long tyme of silence suddenly msg..
it strted out ok.
but denn..
haizz...dun want to sae uh
heartbreak seh!!!!!!!!!
asl uat aku gni?asl??lau nk g,g jauh2 .jgn cari aku lagi


luckily workmates make my day
really enjoyed werkin lately.
im soo lookin 4wrd to werk!

tk payah la tipu aku kn.
aku bkn nk mara..
ni la manusia..
ape nk jd

it takes me courage n strength to be lyke b for
i knw..its unlike me..
i jz dunno y.

i hope tings will be better
cz im tired of tiz situation.
prayed hard to god to let me lead
the lyfe i led b4..
the happy,crazy,jokin,full of nonsence n
most importantly RABIA PPL USED TO KNOW

i ought to thank my frens fer being there fer me..
though we hardly met.
ur words r really meaningful n burn up my enthusiam to be lyke b4
i owe u guys thousands or shld i say countless THANK YOU!

im totally shagged rite nw.i swear
been werkin since sat til now..all the way afternoon
i even had no tyme to revise
but.i wil not take tt as an excuse.
cz i wanna score.i dun wish to flop again

Labels: _cN i bE lyKE beFOre?_

been few days since i let the matter rest..
but i tink i cnt take it n tolerate anymore.
i nid to dcide n i dcided....

the more i tink abt it.the more im hurt
soo wats more cn i do..
i jz bid gdbye..
though it hurt.but its not as hurt as wat im facing.
true??i guess soo..

last fri.after sch went to yishun
doin a favour frm a fren
met faliq(cum alfam cuzzin) @Mcd northpt
2 teach him maths.tell u wat.i gotta crack my brain
yala..after soo long nvr do maths.
teach teach teach den suddenly he pop up a qn

faliq:tknk jp alfam??
me:huh??
faliq:tknk jp alfam???
me:oh tkp.mcm die nk jp org.
faliq:ala..g la msg or kol die
me:tkpla..(trs mcm mati kutu)
faliq:jom g jp mak andak(wich wat he kol alfam's mum)
me:nk uatpe??
faliq:jp je..
me:tkpla.eheh
faliq:oh btw man andak kirim salam(wich he emphasis it couple of tyme)
me:wasalam..

den the convo cntinue..
while walking tp the bustp.
faliq:kak pinjam fon.
me:nah amik
faliq:adik kol alfam k?g jp die
me:tkp.die kn nga bz.
faliq:jap1 kte try
faliq:ala.die tk ans uh
me:tkp..its ok laen kali blh
faliq:thx eh kak ajar adk
me:no prob
off i took 969 n went bck to wdls

seriously.the more he ask n mention alfam name
the more hard it gonna me to 4get him
bdk tu le tny aku asl break?mcmne knl alfam?
die le bring up story2 lame
nasib aku ni kuat.lau tk.adoi...

dadada..
im SICK
n i mean it S.I.C.K!

when i actually i hear tiz song playin in my blog
n looking thru the lyric..
sumhw it got related to me..

cn i run??
run away frm evrythg..
run away frm wat im facing rite nw
run away frm all the problems hunting me
but i knw i cant!

eventhough im down wif tiz kind of situation
i dun wan ppl to b drag in.
i tried to be happy.laugh.smile wen im wif frens
but deep down..only god knw.

to alfam
im givin it up.
no longer the person i wanted most
no longer the person tt 1 dae will surprise me.
n held me ard ur arm
no longer..no longer
it ended 3yrs ago.
n it wont not be attached bck.though we try ample of tymes

to the person it may cncern
play the game as long as u want to play..
see if i played it on u bck..


so sch ended quite late 2dae.
cncel of werk.
had dinner wif khai n shaz @888..
den chil2 awhile,tok2.n off hm
while me n shaz were smokin n waiting fer the bus
a man approached us.
he tok2..(but i cnt hear him properly)
so cnclusion shaz told me tt he asked us to study hard.n not halfway..
i was shocked at 1st cz he approached me n say "god bless u"
trus mcm stunned g2.
shaz lag bgs die igt aku knl uncle tu..
shaz le ckp "ntah2 tuhan antar org kasi kte pertunjuk tk"
ehehheh

Labels: _rUn aS faR aS i cOuld_

Y CNT TINGS GO WIF THE WAY U WISH TO
Y MUST IT BE THE OPPOSITE WAY??
HAIZ..
NO PT LOOKIN BACK.CZ IT AINT CHANGE ANYTHG
THE PAST IS STILL THE PAST..
PRESENT IS WHR WE LOOK AHEAD OF

N.AT LAST
GOT MY PAY..
BUT I AINT GONNA SPENT IT ON UNNECESSARY TINGS
GOTTA TING B4 I SPENT
CZ I NID TO USE LOTS OF CASH

THX FER ENTERIN TO MY LYFE W/O ME WANTING
N THX FER LEAVIN MY LYFE W/O ME WANTING TOO.
NOW I KNW THE REAL U.
THE REAL IN N OUT OF U.
THX I SHLD SAE.
DUN WORRY IM NOT THE PERSON WHU KEEP GRUDGES.

SRTIN TO GET MY BRAIN TO STUDY
LEFT COUPLE OF DAYS B4 MP TEST
GOTTA STUDY HARD(ni serious beb!)
I DUN WISH TO PULL MY GPA DOWN
BEEN MOTIVATED BY DEAR FREN MSG
THX YA..U BROUGHT ME BCK TO REALITY
U BROUGHT MY SPIRIT BCK.
APPRECIATE IT SOOO MUCH =)

Labels: _siMpLy iT doeNt maTter noW_

u find me wen u tink is needed
u txt me wen u tink u bored
u ring me wen u tink u want

whu u treat me as??
a place fer u to throw ur boredom at??
im tired of tiz game.i swear i am..
if u tink of foolin me..tink twice!

wat kind of person r u??
whr u wen i nid u?whr u want i nid sum1 to tok 2?
HEARTLESS PERSON!
pointless

Labels: _cLulEss..heLPless

MONEY MONEY I WANT MONEY
MONEY MONEY IM SHORTAGE OF MONEY
MONEY MONEY FASTER CAME IN
MONEY MONEY I NID U MONEY MONEY!

AH..
RANDOM..BOREDOM.
IM WAITIN PATIENTLY FER MY MONEY TO
BE DEPOSIT IN MY ACC.
I HATE GETTIN BY PAY VIA CHQ.
CZ U KNW Y??
U NID TO DEPOSIT IT URSELF N THE CHQ DEPOSIT BOX
N U HAV TO DEPOSIT IT B4 5 IF U WANT TO GET UR MONEY FAST
IF NOT?U HAV TO WAIT
TTS WAT HAPPENIN TO ME NW
I GOT MY CHQ ON THURS.BUT DPOSIT IT AT NITE.
SO MON DEN MONEY GET
LYFE WTF!

IVE SACRIFICE MY PRAC.
SDH KN..
ISH BEEN 3WKS SINCE I HAD MY LAST PRAC
TKPLA.BIAR LBT ASL SLMT.
CHET TKDELA!
AHAA

KK.IM OFF

according to my watch.
tyme shows :820am..

n..
im still @ hm..
sittin infrt of the computer.
heheh..
class oready strt 20mins ago.
woke up late la bebeh.
soo tired due to werkin..
chet!

argh!!2dae hav to werk
abis plan aku..
got my chq ysterdae.
thx to my manager whu help to deposit e chq fer me
n havin e chq given to us.

erm.
wat more to update eh?
ohya ystdae after sch wen to food culture 2 had our lunch..
laugh2 n laugh till got tiz 1 pakcik tegor
"senang ati die eh"
hehe..pakcik2..mestila sng ati..tkkn nk nangis lak kn =)

oh,bump into bestie @ tamp int.
jauh tol tu minah mlayang
initial plan was to met gfs .but den cncel due to some reason
nvm other tyme k??


kk.
i gtg.
off to sch bebeh!!!

I REALISED TT LATELY MOST PPL R HAVIN PROBS.
BE IN R'SHIP,F'SHIP,FAMILY OR EVEN SCH

I DUN DENY IM FACIN 1 TOO..
2009.THE STRT OF A NEW YR.
THOUGHT TINGS WUD GO SMOOTHLY.
GD FER PPL WHU STRT THEIR 2009 SMOOTHLY
TO PPL LYKE ME..ITS PATHETIC!

NAH!LETS PUT ALL THE PROBS ASIDE.
CZ IT AINT GO IF KEPT SIGHNG OVER IT!

SCH 2DAE WAS DAMN2 BORED!
DRAGGY SEH!
STRT SCH @ 10 ENDS AT 5
ARGH!CN I HAVE MY TYMETABLE CHANGE PLZZ2

GOSH.BLINK UR EYES.N U KNW TT TEST IS CUMING FAST!
SHIT!I REALY HATE IT..
PRESSURIZED SEH.
HW CN I RMBR AFTER 3WKS OF SCH OLIDAE.
N NOT EVEN OPEN MY BK.BUT JZ DUST IT IN THE LOCKER!
AHAHHA..SERVE ME RITE!

STOP ABT SCH.
SOO,AFTER SCH MET DEAR GFS N HAD OUR DINNER AT BANQUET
AS USUAL WEN WE MEET.LOTS OF STORIES N LAUGTERS TO B SHARED.
HAHA
ALONG THE WAE.MET BESTIE.
SOO..LEPAK2.TOK2 ABT THE PAST DURIN SEC SCH DAYS
HILARIOUS SAK!!

SORY BESTIE TK SNGAJE LUKE KN KO
APE2 PN AKU TTP SYG KRG!

Labels: iM mIssin tHe sighT of u.i SweaR

currently @ starbuck wif zima&syerah..
jz havin a lil meet-up wif dem
shasha cnt tag along.die da jd nanny skrg!
ehehe

so....had a video conference wif shasha.
see..dgn muke shasha yg masai!
ahhahaa


kk
update again @ nite aite


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